I am very happy despite losing a housemate. You see, Alvin was the one who introduced me to this house and even helped me get in touch with the owner. Even though, he did his best to help me, my house owner initially objected to letting me rent the room. I am still unsure of why this happen but it did. Maybe she was lust lazy and did not give much thought to it and just gave Alvin a reply in a haste. Maybe she didn't want a black guy staying in her house. Regardless, I had to meet her and convince her that I wanted the room and I eventually succeeded. When I visited the house for the first time, I was impressed and felt that it resembled my house in Kuching. The large living room area with a dining room next to it was familiar and I knew immediately that I had to move in here.
The room that I moved into initially was hot because there was no ceiling fan and the sun would shine through the windows for a large part of the afternoon up till sunset. The heat caused by the sunlight would was my room to be heated and warmer that the other rooms. I suppose this is also a problem face by my other housemates living upstairs. However, they have air conditioning systems to cool their rooms down and I don't. All I have is a measly standing fan that needs to be repositioned every time I move from my table to my bed (not a fun task especially if you keep doing it over and over again). One bad thing which I did not notice at first was the water pressure. I felt that it was okay when I tested it at first. Little did I know that it was extremely bad.
Anyway, moving on with my story. Alvin is moving out to live with his buddies in a room that will be shared by 3 people with him in the equation. He's moving in with his engineering buddies. I guess I'm happy for him as he will be staying with his buddies. You see, in the past two semesters, Alvin has been staying over at his friends on occasions and his friends have been doing the same as well. I guess he can chat all he wants now and do more things with his friends. He has told me that he will be going to the library everyday though as there is no room for him to study. With 3 people in a room, I can see why that's a problem. He also told me that he wants to move out to save money as it only costs RM18+ to share a room.
Now back to the black guy part. Okay, my house owner has been a bit unfair to me for being born a black guy. You see, Alvin's room is a bit bigger than mine (a bit, but their is noticeably significant difference) and he only has to pay RM270 every month. Me on the other hand, paid RM290 just get my less featured room. Then one day, when there was an opening in the top floor (i.e. one of the air conditioned rooms), she offered it to me for RM550. Steven, my other housemate only needs to pay RM500. Now, she is offering me Alvin's room for RM340. That's RM70 more that she did to Alvin. I tell you this, it is because I'm black. Simple. I always get charged higher because of the color of my skin and my inability to converse in Chinese. It sucks being a black guy. Don't think I do not understand the value of RM70. I once had only RM75 in my bank account and there was still about 2 weeks to go before the end of the month. I remember how much I had to make use of that RM75. I ended up asking my dad for more money and I get how embarrassing it is. You know what, I just don't get why black people get discriminated. People think we're dirty, rough and uneducated. Girls and women stay away from me and think I'm a mat rempit, penyamun, perogol or peragut. Indians and Chinese consider me Malay and think the worse of me. Who do I go to? I can't got to the Chinese, Indians or Malays. Who? God ah? The biggest joke. And you guys go to church every Sunday and shout Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Almighty God Hallelujah! "It's a joke, It's all a joke" as the Comedian would say. It's bad enough that I have to live with the inevitable fact that no one will ever love me. It is made worst as I have to face discrimination from the white people of Malaysia, my supposedly superiors, masters. You guys will never changelah. White people will always look down, put down and make sure we black people stay down. I feel pain of all black peoples of this nation facing discrimination from the whites. Why do you white guys feel better than us black people? What have I ever done to deny you the right to live? Nothing, but you put me in this group of people that you feel are lower, lesser, insignificant, milk-able than your superior white genes. I didn't chose to be born like this, your "Saviour" "made(if He does existlah)me this way. I'm an ugly dumb bad black man. I'm an ugly dumb bad black man. I'm an ugly dumb bad black man. There's I've said it. You can keep reading this sentence for the rest of your lives you white people as a reminder of how you triumphed over me. It is sealed in history. I kneel down with all the pride left in me kicked out by you; bow and place my hands and head at your feet; I front of the whole world and declare I submit, I lose you win, I am nothing, I am beneath you; I am a lesser creature who can only envy the life a true human being (a white person), the beauty, the accomplishment and the greatness of the white race; and I humbly and with the greatest of hope, I beg for your mercy to allow me to have the very basic elements required to sustain life which the Almighty God has placed in your possession. I plead for you most gracious mercy. A degree of mercy which only the white race can ever achieve.
Inspired or Disturbed.
And you guys go to church every Sunday and shout Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Almighty God Hallelujah!
"It's a joke, It's all a joke"
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